REPLY TO THE AUTHOR 2 POSTS DOWN:

first, i'd like to say that I'M NOT ANGRY even though i was very tempted not to come online just now (sorry i'm revealing the reason why i never replied your sms today morning...ok partially due to my exceeded sms) wanted go on some quiet strike because sometimes i'm just like that...為了生氣而生氣...and my mum says thats not good. I DONT CARE~ i'm jsut so childish >:D

how can i be 生氣 with you?? ok even though my post below (this and the last post) MIGHT sound a little, but its not ok!! its truly purely not! its just 氣頭上的話 and then its like. yeah. just imagine trying to be 生氣 with water and not drinking it because you're angry at it. yepp. so thats the extent of how i cant be 生氣 with you.

anyway...the quite angry points.

i shall reiterate my point there, you're never alone ok! i mean, its just like the laws of physics, why people can sleep on nail beds, because each nail gets an equal amount of force so end up, the nails all get a very small force so the reaction force doesnt poke the damn dumb guy sleeping there. ITS THE SAME YEAH? i mean, you have so many people here, and whats wrong with getting the load to be shared? (i shall not say that we are nails since it sounds like an ugly 比喻) whatever you're feeling or thinking or that responsibility that you're trying to take away from me (*ahem). its all the matter of sharing! damn i give up on english. because i can never express myself clearly with english

你覺得如果你一個人承受我們會很好受嗎?
然後一個人就在那邊悶然後也不知道你在悶什麼東西
也不知道是不是好的,是不是不好的
至少至少讓別人知道自己在想什麼
除非你真的超喜歡玩這種無聊的抓迷藏
那我也不管你了,真的,你就自己在那邊悶吧

oh crap. i'm talking evily again. sorry. i didnt mean it that way. (the damn use of chinese)
anyway the point is, i dont feel good if you're there like closing yourself for i-dunno-what reason and then you're not particularly feeling happy or whatever. and then you dont want to let anyone know. and that reminds me of 神秘嘉賓 mv because that damn woman keeps running around and around and making my head pain. its kind of the same thing.

YOU KNOW WHAT. i have to admit i dont understand a single thing what you're writing there. i suddenly have that realisation of how people read my emo shit and goes off having this ?! thinking in their brain. and really. i dont understand a thing, so i dont really think i have the 資格 to really lecture you about whatever. still. i felt the obligation to. i cant just let you just walk around feeling bad/emo and then what am i supposed to do? and then you go to school like nothing happened and WHAT?! whammo and after school you go posting (or rather, NOT talking/posting/sms-ing) sadness and all that.

whoa. suddenly i'm not very angry, see my lightening tone....because of joanna! damn her man! her music everytime just calms people's soul (ok you'll know that i type the last paragraphs first then the middle portion because its kind of obvious where i'm qutie angry and where i'm not)

i'm not really sad about you not coming online or whatever already, because i know everyone's not really coming online except for dumb me (and smart jammytwin!) and its because of the O levels. so that one is out of the point. but still, i HOPE that you're resting enough.

but anyway, now i dont know a single thing of what you're thinking (because you want to shut yourself up somewhere) and you dont sms me or whatever or call me or whatever and then i can only tell you to drink more water and sleep more and stop studying so much because your brain will be fried before o levels come. and you know. its really true ok. i dont want to lose this person called ahma which is 早晨第一杯水. HELLO. LET ME REPEAT MYSELF. I DONT WANT TO LOSE THIS PERSON CALLED AHMA WHICH IS MY 早晨的第一杯水 AND THE PERSON THAT I LOVE A LOT A LOT A LOT A LOT A LOT (actually not enough "A LOT"s) OK!??!

[this para suddenly 3rd person??]
dammit. i always tell myself that i can scold people, but i cant really scold people.
i shall not call ahma. everytime i call her its even worse. sometimes i wonder if it was her on the other side of the line. SHE DOESNT BLOODY TALK ON THE PHONE and maybe for goodness sake it might be sarah. HAH. and then the thought just kind of scares me. later its some alien taking over ahma's body or somethign!!! (been reading too many war of the worlds) but anyway, because i dont like that kind of 若即若離 feel, like 很近又很遠 that kind of thing. dammit. it doesnt give a sense of security at all. and i think i'm kind of too young to be talking about these kind of thing, but WHO CARES.

[ANGRY ALERT -- before joanna songs kicked in i wrote this part]
and to finish this reply, dont you think its kind of stupid (ok being harsh here again :/) that we're trying to communicate like POSTING?!?!? sure. i mean there's such a thing called sms (currently unavailable due to my stupid exceeding smses) or phone calls or msn. and i think i'm being plain dumb like trying to make my point here. but everytime i call people then i'll forget what i want to say :/ and then you dont come msn like AT ALL (ok...for my time) except for habenying and i dont feel like talking on habenying because liyi sucks.

ok damn. i promised jammytwin this would be a 心平氣和 reply....lately cant really control my damn emotions/hand which is typing almost everything my brain is processing. i should learn to have a higher EQ and be more sensitive and whatever right? since my letters everytime say i will learn to be more 乖 and stuff. actually i dont think it matters now, since whether i'm 乖 or not doesnt really change a thing.
[END OF ANGRY ALERT]

ok. paiseh for the quite angry reply.

REPLY TO THE AUTHOR OF THE POST BELOW THIS:

hello jammytwin! dont worry! even though i really dunno what happened on friday but i know that you're not sad or whatever already so its alright! and i'm not even sure what happened to me on friday now :O hurr i'm kind of crazy?

sorry for kind of ignoring your 勸架 thing...really sorry! dont worry you'll be the best negotiator. i promise to talk very 心平氣和-ly :D because of joanna's songs! hehehe

REPLY TO THE AUTHOR 2 POSTS DOWN:

first, i'd like to say that I'M NOT ANGRY even though i was very tempted not to come online just now (sorry i'm revealing the reason why i never replied your sms today morning...ok partially due to my exceeded sms) wanted go on some quiet strike because sometimes i'm just like that...為了生氣而生氣...and my mum says thats not good. I DONT CARE~ i'm jsut so childish >:D

how can i be 生氣 with you?? ok even though my post below (this and the last post) MIGHT sound a little, but its not ok!! its truly purely not! its just 氣頭上的話 and then its like. yeah. just imagine trying to be 生氣 with water and not drinking it because you're angry at it. yepp. so thats the extent of how i cant be 生氣 with you.

anyway...the quite angry points.

i shall reiterate my point there, you're never alone ok! i mean, its just like the laws of physics, why people can sleep on nail beds, because each nail gets an equal amount of force so end up, the nails all get a very small force so the reaction force doesnt poke the damn dumb guy sleeping there. ITS THE SAME YEAH? i mean, you have so many people here, and whats wrong with getting the load to be shared? (i shall not say that we are nails since it sounds like an ugly 比喻) whatever you're feeling or thinking or that responsibility that you're trying to take away from me (*ahem). its all the matter of sharing! damn i give up on english. because i can never express myself clearly with english

你覺得如果你一個人承受我們會很好受嗎?
然後一個人就在那邊悶然後也不知道你在悶什麼東西
也不知道是不是好的,是不是不好的
至少至少讓別人知道自己在想什麼
除非你真的超喜歡玩這種無聊的抓迷藏
那我也不管你了,真的,你就自己在那邊悶吧

oh crap. i'm talking evily again. sorry. i didnt mean it that way. (the damn use of chinese)
anyway the point is, i dont feel good if you're there like closing yourself for i-dunno-what reason and then you're not particularly feeling happy or whatever. and then you dont want to let anyone know. and that reminds me of 神秘嘉賓 mv because that damn woman keeps running around and around and making my head pain. its kind of the same thing.

YOU KNOW WHAT. i have to admit i dont understand a single thing what you're writing there. i suddenly have that realisation of how people read my emo shit and goes off having this ?! thinking in their brain. and really. i dont understand a thing, so i dont really think i have the 資格 to really lecture you about whatever. still. i felt the obligation to. i cant just let you just walk around feeling bad/emo and then what am i supposed to do? and then you go to school like nothing happened and WHAT?! whammo and after school you go posting (or rather, NOT talking/posting/sms-ing) sadness and all that.

whoa. suddenly i'm not very angry, see my lightening tone....because of joanna! damn her man! her music everytime just calms people's soul (ok you'll know that i type the last paragraphs first then the middle portion because its kind of obvious where i'm qutie angry and where i'm not)

i'm not really sad about you not coming online or whatever already, because i know everyone's not really coming online except for dumb me (and smart jammytwin!) and its because of the O levels. so that one is out of the point. but still, i HOPE that you're resting enough.

but anyway, now i dont know a single thing of what you're thinking (because you want to shut yourself up somewhere) and you dont sms me or whatever or call me or whatever and then i can only tell you to drink more water and sleep more and stop studying so much because your brain will be fried before o levels come. and you know. its really true ok. i dont want to lose this person called ahma which is 早晨第一杯水. HELLO. LET ME REPEAT MYSELF. I DONT WANT TO LOSE THIS PERSON CALLED AHMA WHICH IS MY 早晨的第一杯水 AND THE PERSON THAT I LOVE A LOT A LOT A LOT A LOT A LOT (actually not enough "A LOT"s) OK!??!

[this para suddenly 3rd person??]
dammit. i always tell myself that i can scold people, but i cant really scold people.
i shall not call ahma. everytime i call her its even worse. sometimes i wonder if it was her on the other side of the line. SHE DOESNT BLOODY TALK ON THE PHONE and maybe for goodness sake it might be sarah. HAH. and then the thought just kind of scares me. later its some alien taking over ahma's body or somethign!!! (been reading too many war of the worlds) but anyway, because i dont like that kind of 若即若離 feel, like 很近又很遠 that kind of thing. dammit. it doesnt give a sense of security at all. and i think i'm kind of too young to be talking about these kind of thing, but WHO CARES.

[ANGRY ALERT -- before joanna songs kicked in i wrote this part]
and to finish this reply, dont you think its kind of stupid (ok being harsh here again :/) that we're trying to communicate like POSTING?!?!? sure. i mean there's such a thing called sms (currently unavailable due to my stupid exceeding smses) or phone calls or msn. and i think i'm being plain dumb like trying to make my point here. but everytime i call people then i'll forget what i want to say :/ and then you dont come msn like AT ALL (ok...for my time) except for habenying and i dont feel like talking on habenying because liyi sucks.

ok damn. i promised jammytwin this would be a 心平氣和 reply....lately cant really control my damn emotions/hand which is typing almost everything my brain is processing. i should learn to have a higher EQ and be more sensitive and whatever right? since my letters everytime say i will learn to be more 乖 and stuff. actually i dont think it matters now, since whether i'm 乖 or not doesnt really change a thing.
[END OF ANGRY ALERT]

ok. paiseh for the quite angry reply.

REPLY TO THE AUTHOR OF THE POST BELOW THIS:

hello jammytwin! dont worry! even though i really dunno what happened on friday but i know that you're not sad or whatever already so its alright! and i'm not even sure what happened to me on friday now :O hurr i'm kind of crazy?

sorry for kind of ignoring your 勸架 thing...really sorry! dont worry you'll be the best negotiator. i promise to talk very 心平氣和-ly :D because of joanna's songs! hehehe